understanding why???

So for some reason, that last few nights have been kind of difficult for me. Especially last night. It seems like the crying is more frequent and easier. I just don't know why. Some of it's school related stuff. Some of it's relationship stuff. AGAIN!! It never seems to be anything new. I'm sure people are tired of hearing it. But it's just the way it is. This week is teacher appreciation week and it's making me feel kind of bummed. It's just one of those times when I start compare myself to others. I feel like I haven't gotten as many things. I know that we're not supposed to put too much value on material things, but it's just a concrete way for me to know that I'm appreciated. All these thoughts just keep running threw my head. I'm not sure that even some of them make sense. I just wish they did and that I could easily tell them to go away and that I would instantly feel better.