glad it's over

So since about Thursday evening I've been really worried about handing back my students' latest math test. Largely because one of my students did poorly on it and her mom hasn't been my biggest "fan" all year long. I was worried that when she got it back, that I would end up getting a "lecture" from the mom and then possibly even questioned by the principal. I decided that I needed to be proactive and address the situation head on. Because of that, I not only let the student fix her test, but also do some extra credit assignments to raise her grade. I also decided to talk with the mom myself before her daughter even came home with the assignment. Originally I was just going to send her an email, but she was up at the school today, so I took the opportunity to speak to her face to face. It actually went pretty well and I'm hoping that I don't hear about it in the future. Overall, I'm glad that this part of the day is done with. I was really worried about it last night and it contributed to my falling asleep rather late.

Last night I also took a while to fall asleep, because I was thinking about "relationships" and how I've never been in one. Sometimes I just feel so pathetic and wonder if it's ever going to happen. I know that this isn't a new thought for me, but it just hasn't been bothering me much lately, especially like it did last night. It lead me to tears and I don't cry much anymore. It's just that somedays I feel so lost and alone, still. I know I've got to stop the negative thoughts, because they don't get me anywhere. But sometimes I just want to scream them all at the top of my lungs, so people would maybe understand and show that they care.